He told her he loved her constantly, and she loved him too, in her own way. Her parents were ecstatic that she was going out with him, but she kept insisting that it wasn't serious yet. And when her father looked into her eyes, it almost broke his heart. He could read all too easily what was and wasn't there. All he saw was immeasurable pain. It was like looking into a bottomless pool of grief. The fact that she chatted and smiled and had begun to laugh again didn't fool him.
And when her mother was rhapsodizing about Andy one day, when she and Clarke were alone having dinner at the house, he tried to discourage her.
He thought that what she was doing was dangerous for Kate.
“Don't push them, Liz. Let them find their own way.”
“They seem to be doing fine. I'm sure they're going to get engaged.” But what did that mean? he wondered to himself. That she had been profoundly in love with one man, and had to be married to someone, anyone, to replace him, whether she loved him or not? To him, it seemed an abysmal fate.
He and Liz had been married for thirteen years, and he was still in love with her every day. He didn't want anything less for Kate.
“I don't think she should marry him,” Clarke said sensibly.
“Why not?” Elizabeth looked incensed. She didn't want him to spoil anything.
“She's not in love with him, Liz,” he said quietly. “Look at her. She's still in love with Joe.”
“He was never right for her, and he's gone, for Heaven's sake.”
“That doesn't change how she felt about him. She may not get over it for years.
” What he was beginning to fear most was that she never would. And marrying Andy might only make things worse, particularly if she did it to please them. It might break her spirit entirely, or fill her with despair. In that case, she was better off alone, no matter how nice a boy Andy was. “Just leave them alone, and let them figure it out,” he urged, and Liz shook her head as she looked at him.
“She needs to get married and have kids, Clarke. What do you expect her to do when she graduates in June?” She made marriage and children sound like occupational therapy, which was upsetting to him.
“I'd rather she get a job than marry the wrong man.” He was very firm.
“There is nothing ‘wrong’ with Andy Scott.” She was beginning to wonder where her husband got his crazy ideas. Maybe he had been a little dazzled by Joe Allbright too. But however dazzling he had been, Joe Allbright was gone. And Kate had to go on with her life.
